LoVeRs <3
There is something strangely beautiful about me and I have pretty much always been aware of it. People don’t get it. They just don’t. I have always felt like I needed someone in this world where I seem to be lost to understand…anyone really. Then maybe I wouldn’t feel so alone.
It took a long time. It was rough at times, but that’s what got us there. I have never in my life been so overwhelmed with emotion and it is still hard to put into words. You’re the person who sees me for me. The only person really. My best friend, my family, my soul mate ( sounds like we are lesbian lovers). Over the past 25 years particularly the last three I have learned so much from you. I have learned how I want my kids to love me, how I want to love them and other people. You have given me the courage to have a voice when dealing with psychotic family and friends :), the courage to love and open my heart again. But the coolest thing I have gotten from you is how to forgive the unforgivable, and not just to forgive but how to love the person you forgave. This means more to me then you will ever know, but you probably do know. There are so many incredible things that I get from you and I don’t even know that they are there until they come out.
I realized that I hadn’t thought about how much we mean to each other until I rolled out of your driveway. If I would have known you were doing exactly what I wanted to do, I would have turned around. I feel the same way. When you told me the first thing I wanted to do is put my arms around you and make it better. I still want to. It’s gotten harder because I know you are hurting and so am I. My heart hurts and I am not sure I can do this. I have to try. That’s more of a pep talk for myself, but you know what I am trying to say.
Thank you for being you, and for loving me. It’s a wonderful gift. The best. We are really lucky. You are so beautiful and precious to me. The best part of that beauty is you have no idea how beautiful you are.
I am still in a world where I am not really sure where I belong, but now I feel more at ease knowing that I am not alone. I have you. We have each other. Near or far we are always close.
